an English translation of the novel

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He rubbed Subaru’s chin.

“I should have made my decision sooner. If I hadn’t been so indecisive, Subaru wouldn’t have had to suffer like this.”

“It’s not your fault,” I said vehemently.

“It wasn’t the cat’s fault either. It’s here simply because it was ordered to end my life. …I’ve taken too long to decide on what I should have done.”

Shun pointed at a cupboard on the wall. “There’s a bottle of pills in there, filled with different types of poison. They gave it to me before I came here. Don’t you think it’s a cruel parting gift?”

So that was how the adults handled Shun’s situation, by making him end his own life? The thought didn’t surprise me. Maybe I had been exposed to so much shock in rapid succession that I was now numb.

“I’m glad you didn’t take any. You should throw them all away.”

“I took them all.”


“But they didn’t work. It was too late. I guess it’s easy to change poisons on a molecular level. Though I was surprised when even arsenic couldn’t kill me. It seems like my Shadow, the part of my unconscious that doesn’t want to die, is capable of altering even basic elements.”

I put my hand on Shun’s.

“…I think it’s coming,” he said to himself.

“What is?”

“Saki, hurry and get out of here!” he drew his hand away and stood up.

The house gave a loud thump. The wasp balls rose high in the air, vibrating intensely, then clattered to the ground.

“It’s the same as that time. When my house was swallowed up… Isn’t it funny? It’s almost like the Spirit of Blessing. But instead of blessing you, it brings death.”

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He pushed me from behind, “Hurry!”

I tried to resist, but he overpowered me.

“I’ll put an end to it now. I’ve had enough.”

Before my eyes, the walls began to warp and shake. What looked like bubbles appeared and burst one after another. It was a chaotic scene. My head began to hurt again.

“Saki,” Shun said quietly as he pushed me out the door.

His mask started melting even though there was no heat.

“I’ve always loved you.”

“Why are you saying this now? Shun! I…”


The next second, I was hundreds of meters above the ground. I looked down at Shun’s bungalow in the moonlight.

There was only a deep crater.

The earth around the crater started caving in. The air was filled with a low rumbling and sharp snapping sounds as trees were ripped up by the roots.

This apocalyptic scene slowly grew farther and farther away. I realized that I was flying backwards in a large arc. A strong wind buffeted my clothes this way and that. It blew away my barrette and my hair trailed out behind me in the night sky.

If I just crashed into something and died, that wouldn’t be too bad.

With that thought, I closed my eyes.

And opened them again.

Shun had saved me with the last of his strength.

I had to live.

I turned to face forward. The wind stung but I didn’t close my eyes. My tears were blown away behind me.

It looked like I would land in a wide, grassy plain. I wondered if Shun had had this destination in mind when he flung me across the sky.

Slowly, the ground grew closer and closer.

Slowly, as if I were in a dream.