an English translation of the novel

Page 194-195

“It’s about time. You should go home now.”

I shook my head, still crying.

“I can control the leakage for a short while by concentrating on a task and redirecting my cantus to it. During that time most of the ill effects can be suppressed. Right now, I’m focusing on controlling seven hundred wasp balls so that it doesn’t affect you. But I can only keep this up for ten, fifteen minutes at most. Once my concentration starts to wane, my subconscious could go out of control at any time.”

“No! I’m not leaving! I want to be with you.”

“Saki, my condition has already caused my parents’ deaths.”

His words pierced my heart.

“They wanted to help me however they could. But there was nothing they could do. I tried my best to control my cantus through pure willpower, but that’s the worst method to use. In the end, it rebounded with even greater force.”


“I thought I heard the house creak, and suddenly the ground liquefied and swallowed it whole. I was saved, probably because one of my parents used their cantus to eject me from the house at the last second.”

I heard him sob into his mask.

“So hurry and leave. Please. I don’t want to see anyone else I love die.”

I stood up slowly. Despair and helplessness weighed me down.

I can’t save Shun.

I can’t do anything.


At the door, I turned back to face him.

“Shun, is there anything you want me to do?”

He shook his head.

Suddenly, a gigantic animal slipped by me and into the bungalow.

It was a tainted cat with grey tiger stripes, twice as large as the black one I met earlier. It paid no attention to me and advanced on Shun, purring loudly.

4 Responses to Page 194-195

  1. T-T all of my feels, WHY?!!


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